Love is truly blind.
I say this because you wounded my heart thousands of times and you made me cry a thousand times more but I love you.
I don’t just miss the intimacy because I have that with him.
Maybe it’s not at deep as the intimacy we shared, but I have it.
And I don’t just miss the friendship because we have that.
I miss you holding me in your arms.
I miss the way your lips felt.
I miss your deep blue eyes. I used to search those eyes for a sign, any sign of love towards me.
I really don’t know if I ever found it in your soul because my eyes were clouded by my emotions for you that I could have just imagined it.
So no matter how much I try to fight it, you are still apart of my life.
You are still in my heart and you are wedged deep into my soul and I can’t continue on like this.
I have to figure things out and I’m asking you to help me because I don’t know if I can do it alone.
I have to go to you because you know me better then he does, you know me better then maybe I do.
I don’t know why I have such this fixture on you and why I’m placing myself in this vulnerable situation because, like crystal, what we are is so very delicate and it doesn’t take much to manipulate it either way.
You said that you would always be there for me whenever I needed you and that you understood me, so be here for me now as I search my soul for what I should do and understand whatever decision I must make.
I don’t want to hurt him, but I don’t want to wonder what could have happened either.
So here I am, asking you if you love me. Here I am asking myself if I can still love you because I was the one who walked out that day.
I was the one who left you in your room, alone. So tell me, what the hell am I supposed to do?
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“Don’t do this to me. Not now.”
Ella closed her eyes and let the water rain down onto her, in…